Love is not a feeling per say, it's something you become

This time last year I was in love with an amazing man, a man who made me feel so loved and special and beautiful, the man of my dreams. This day 14th February 2011 I will always remember, not as valentine's day, but as the day he told me he was in love with me and asked me to be his wife for the first time.Fast forward 365 days and I am still in love with the same man, but he is no longer in love with me, he left me. And I sad, and alone and broken and empty inside and no matter how much I try I can't move on, simple fact I don't want to, I know I can't trust him anymore, and I no longer feel safe or secure with him, but I love him with an undying passion that I can't just turn off like he has done, he is my world, even now, I spend my days waiting for a call from him, for a text message, anything I love him so much it hurts me inside to my core and everyday I am away from him, every day I don't get to say "I love you" another little piece of me dies inside and I know one day there will be nothing left for anyone else...not even me. I would die for him, I would honestly and gladly give up my life if I knew that would make him happy and safe for the rest of his life, because in reality, I can't live in a world where he doesn't love me, where I am not with him, it's too hard to do, it's impossible, he is my soul mate, my love, my heart my very soul my everything.

Vincent van Gogh

Vincent van Gogh lived a short, deeply tormented life, throughout which he sought (in vain) his place in the world. He died, by his own hand, feeling his life was a miserable failure. Unknown to Vincent, the work he did pioneered the Expressionistic style and 150 years after his birth, his name would be world famous.The beauty his tormented soul created in his fabulous pieces of art would live on well beyond him, well beyond his pain and they would bring such joy and happiness to the millions who have experienced the beauty of his hand.

I want to get to the point where people say of my work that man feels deeply.

- Vincent van Gogh